Come fly among the clouds with me.

Its so rad.

It's so yeah.

Its so chill.

Saturday, August 30

Mistakes, Mistakes, Mistakes..

Mistakes are made.
it depends on whether to change from it, or continue.

i continued..

"backstabbing", a familiar word to everyone.
–verb (used with object), -stabbed, -stab·bing.
to attempt to discredit (a person) by underhanded means, as innuendo, accusation, or the like.

I, Gordon Goh, is a damned backstabber, a no good bum.
There was advice from people which i didnt take.

and no.
im not writing this cos i regret becoming friends with eric.
neither did he "betray" me.

its just that this week or so, i've been getting advice and stuff bout not hanging with them.
even from Mr. Lum. but he said its okayy.
you just need to know your limit.
its fun hanging with them, yes.
but there's a limit to everything and you have to know when to stop.

i do agree that im starting to be a little like "them".
my behaviour, the things i say, etc.

all these things are just "adapting" to your different group of friends?

like when im with Darius, JJC, Chris, Shaun, Xaiver and John. There'll be a certain behaviour.

when im with Drama, there'll be another certain behaviour.

and when im with Eric and Zhongyik and Shadiq, there'll be another certain behaviour.

well, i have this week of hols to think about everythingg.
and i've been turning down their offers to meet me.
that's improvement? to SOME people, yeah.

anyways, this has all been fruitfull experience for me.
i now know i have enemies, as well as anti-gordonists.
i also know i have people who "care" for me? im not being ego-istic or anything.

blehh, im feeling random..
oh shit, i think its gonna rain again, looking at the clouds and the brightness and shit.

i feel so fucked up now.
i dont wanna lose my friends because of what i did ))):

so regretting my actions.

i feel like going to church and pray now.
put all my worries and problems into God's hand.
GOSH! i feel so Christiansy noww..

"know when to draw the line."

AMEN!

Gordon at 12:19:00 PM