Tuesday, September 1

Bring Me The Horizon - Medusa

Jealousy.
So, you keep the important parts out from me and kept with you the specific details. Well, good luck to you both. And see you all in hell. I was asked to go out today, but I'm sadly turning it down. I doubt my wellsprings would allow that. With the fucking exams approaching at an accelerating speed, as the days hasten it's pace, what is going to come. I'm not prepared. I've been sitting here for the past few days, in front of the computer screen doing *&^%$#@!idunnowhatthefuck!@#$%^&* and just wasting my days away. I feel I should just get up and do something useful, but the temptation of just lazing away and doing nothing is pure relaxation. There's no worries at all, Hakuna Matata. I'll try to start something, for the first time, study. Next week. I've set myself a goal, now all I have to do, is work to it. What is it that drives me you may ask ? The answer, that person. That person. I suddenly feel we aren't that close anymore. Or as close as we were when it was just the few of us. You know something, I'm fucking up my own life. Creating my own conspiracies, contradicting myself. I might as well should've been a masochist at a metal concert. Would physical pain help me escape emotional pain ? People always say "cheer up" or "don't feel sad". Even I myself have told others that, but how can you tell others to "cheer up" when you don't know what they're feeling or thinking. Feelings, thoughts, they're a powerful thing to not mess with.

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Bring Me The Horizon - Medusa

Gordon at 11:07:00 AM